An afternoon of escape

The mri's that I had this morning lasted 90 minutes. You have to be very still for this test, and wouldn't you know it? Every thing gets itchy and I had to yawn like 8 times. (I am sure I had to yawn because I was up at 5AM. This is NOT my most functional hour of the day-I can't even think straight. I am just so sad and mad that I have to stay up.) Anyway, have you ever tried to yawn with your mouth closed? Try it. It is very hard and your whole head shakes. This is not very good for the mri scan. They had to repeat one of the 4 minute tests-I was probably yawning.

Yesterday was a hard day. However, Mike and I took time to listen to each other and to try and understand what is going on. Mike is so incredible! As he is struggling with what we heard, he continues to show me how much he loves me. I am honestly so very blessed by him. He would never agree with me but I will keep telling him that he is an amazing man. He is a gift that I do not deserve. When I finally woke up this morning, well maybe at around 9 AM, I realized that one day does not change God's plan for us. I believe He gave me a promise of healing. We are not sure exactly what God is using this trip for but we are going to continue to trust Him and wait for His timing. Brandon, (Trev, we know this is you) your message to us really got us thinking and it reminded us of God's power. Although it is hard to understand Him right now, we want to trust Him.

Tomorrow, I have an eye test and a spinal tap. Now, I had a spinal tap back in 2000 and I will never forget that pain. I am very scared and if I could get out of it, I would. Not to mention it is at 7:45 AM. Very early! I suppose this is good to get it over with right away. I will be squeezing Mike's hand very hard.

Today we did some shopping. It was 3 hours of escaping from reality for a while. We all needed that. Mike was very gracious to take us to the mall as it is his least favorite place to be. And of course, mom always makes us laugh. There was this lady in the food court who had a very loud and interesting laugh. Instead of looking so that no one would notice, she turned right around
in her chair and looked right at her. I mean-her whole body turned. Very cute! As much as she makes us laugh, she is also a great support to us right now. It is good for us to hear her thoughts and she is a woman of prayer. She shares in our pain and frustrations and at the same time she encourages us in who we are as a couple.

We ask that you pray that these tests will bring some answers, and that there would be some form of treatment. We ask that you also pray that no matter what the results are, we continue to trust. There are times we both feel that we cannot do this anymore-we just want it to be done. We need His grace to persevere.